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My 2010 Christmas Vacation is one of the most hectic, fun, & memorable holiday vacation that I have.

Since my Aunt Bet, cousin Ryan, & Alex arrived, no day goes to waste. From morning till night, we are packed of things to do, places to go, foods to eat. They arrived 21st of December and went home on 1st of January. I started my vacation on the 23rd and spent most of my time with the Lipio family going to Tiange at Greenhills, Pet village at Tiendesitas, drinking booze at High Street- Fort, snorkeling to the coral gardens of Coron- Palawan and enjoying our sun bathing to the beach shore of Malcapuya Island. It was a very tiring experience but worth all the sleepless night I had.

Untill now, I still haven't gotten the sleep I was hoping to do over the holidays or completely buy all of my Christmas present to give. I'm still missing 4 gifts to office mates and friends.

Oh before I forget to mention; on the flight to Coron, Palawan- I won a Cebu Pacific basket that unfortunately my sister lost it when we arrived at our lodge. Curse to the person who took it! I bet that its the same guests that checked in with us, who took my basket. There were only 3 winners and 2 of them came from us. It was a "show me" game and the host ask for an item, and who ever showed it first gets to win the basket. Alex won for showing the flight pamphlet and I got mine by showing a cigarette. The 3rd one, i forgot what "show me" item was asked, but the person who won didn't stay in the same lodge as ours. Anyways, Alex left his basket with me and its in my closet together with my sunblock. suntan, and eco-bag that i use in the beach.

HAPPY 2011 to ALL!

I need someone to call
When I'm feeling blue
I need someone to love
Who's like you
I really need someone
And it's you


I want see again the stars in your eyes
Just to forget my million cries
Let me hear again the beat of your <3
Although I now you love me not


Stay with me just even as a friend,
Stay with me 'till the end
And I pray to God who sits above
To let you feel my hidden love

I gave the speech right after dinner. I remember that i couldn't eat and I drank half a glass of wine to collect my courage. My speech is short and simple, but from my heart. I figured since its a intimate wedding, there is no point of expressing much of the Bride and Grooms personality - the two Bestman covered that part well enough.

I hope that Antonio and (especially) Elaine love and appreciate my what I said that night.


Good Evening Everybody.

I'm Valerie.

Thank you Emma for asking me to be your Maid of Honor, I wasn't expecting it.

I've known Elaine since we were grade 6. Our Friendship blossomed during High School.
Elaine is like a Sister to me. We had our shared trials is life. We Fought, we cried, we laugh, we had each other's back.

When Elaine told me that she got engaged to Antonio - That was the first time we spoked to each other after a year of no communication. I remember, I felt sand and happy at the same time.

Happy, cause my Sister is back.

Sad (for a split seconds), cause I'm loosing her again for the second time.

But now, I've realized that I'm not loosing a sister. Instead, I'm gaining a brother.


To Antonio and Elaine:

I'm wishing you the best of both worlds.
Love each other as if it was the first time.
Pray together before you sleep
And most of All (promise me this), I'll be the Ninang of your first born
... Make it soon!
Love you Both!

Cheers!!!

Its been awhile since I wrote my thoughts out. I wasn't in the mood and I see no significant event that's worth sharing, till now (I guess).


My Best Friend Elaine got married last Friday and I was the Maid of Honor. I remember that I didn't enjoy the seat down dinner cause I was so nervous with my speech. Its short, but its from the heart. I'll post it next time, I wrote it down on a piece of paper and its somewhere in my purse.


Before and after the wedding, I (still) feel terrified. You see, both Rina and Elaine are married and my buddy Q, is engaged. I'm the last one in the circle who doesn't have a partner. I'm scared. I'm really scared that, what if there is no one for me out there? What if I'm destined to be single for the rest of my life? I've been trying to tell myself that its going to be alright, that I will live to accept it. But as each day passes by, I feel hopeless, worried, scared that this is my life would be. I don't want to be single for the rest of my life. I don't want to be lonely. I'm lonely every single day. I mean, I put up a face that I'm alright and strong and I have accepted my singular livelihood but I'm having this melt down or whatever you call it. Gosh, I don't even know if I wanted to post this and share with you all but I wanna be true to myself at one point. I don't want to pretend that my life is great. Funny, cause when people ask me how I am, my answer is already 'I'm great'. Its harder pulling this thing off and not telling anyone the truth about it. It scared me that when I tell, I'll see this pathetic look on their faces and they try tell me that it will be alright, that the right guy will show up soon, all that crap; cause when I look in their eyes, I don't see the hope that someone is out there for me.


How come it feels that I'm the only single person who feels this way? This sucks!