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I am not a fan of Pinoy movies. It all started with my friend Rob, who keeps inviting me to watch the newly highly talked about pinoy movies. I’ve watched three movies so far.


1. Bru and Palits
2. Joanna, Ian, and Karyn And
3. Popoy and Basha


I’m sure you can guess the titles of the movie I’ve written above.
I’m not sure why I’m writing this down. As I am continuously type, i’ll figure out where I am going with this.


I just finish e-mailing my Best- Rina. Do some small paper work, that’s on top of my desk. Smoke and smoke. I was telling my best friend about the movie I watched yesterday. I forgot to mention to her that the whole movie house was packed with couples or girl friends.
Its not a date movie.


Its more of a couple movie or a post “had my heart broken by someone I believe to be my The ONE” movie. Its your typical movie that is about long term relationship, growing up, learning , and fighting for the one you believe to be your true love.

It’s the movie that will move you because you have experience it.

I think it’s only the girls who can understand Bea at the movie. The part of the girl’s life when she is getting tiered and needing space. The feeling of suffocation. The changing of character. Getting lost. Not knowing who she is anymore. It’s about self seeking. Finding the answers by your own. Getting out there and experiencing it without any help from your friends. The growth that only time and experience can teach us. This is the only part of Bea’s character that I can relate too. I felt this feeling. Only my girlfriend can understand it. My guy barkada can’t, no matter how much I or my girlfriends explain it to them. The part of a girl’s life that makes her a grown woman.


John’s character was the one who save the relationship. Without his strength, intelligence, and willingness to pursue, this movie won’t be ideally, and faithfully correct. I think, most people could relate to him. Unless you haven’t had your heart broken. It’s the: I want to get drunk, stay in bed, smoke, smoke, smoke, and smoke, thinking over and over, not eating at all, wanting to be alone, I want to die. It’s the love that is hurting too much, but you can’t stop loving that person, no matter how you try- Cause you know it’s the right love for you. John’s character was the control freak, planner, commander, and selfish. He is the type of person who is strong, knows what he wants- makes it happen, plans for the future – in his own control, had the effort to pursue and make things happen, he had a gift and curse- to make someone change, and lastly - believes in faith. I’m not being boastful, but am I almost the same as him. Like a vague water color painting from afar.


This is my bell. The bell that will; should wake me up- this time. It’s like the summary of my story, telling me… It ends here, time to start another chapter. The after story of moving on, the part where people find it boring, (that’s why no one makes a movie about it). It’s a start of a new me.


I don’t believe that we always end up with “the one”.

I don’t believe that love will find the way.

I don’t believe that love is enough to make the whole world spin

I don’t believe that sacrifices are worth in the end

I don’t believe that love does heal

Cynical as it appears

Bitter as it sounds


It’s who I am.

One week has been passed. i'm at home now, enjoying the borrowed laptop of my Dad. Well, basically its my sister's Laptop na. After my "left to right" incident. I keep on thinking, what good will be passing my way. Well, i felt that I was hex that time or something. Remember, twice in a row my accident. Yesterday Sunday, Me and Dad with Achie were eating at Cafe Mediterranean at ATC. I don't know what came up with Daddy. Cause he offered to buy a new iPod Nano! Yehey! Kinda Shocked, cause since me and Achie are working, he doesn't offer us this kind of gesture, unless there is an occasion. Kc daw we are Old na and working. And we should learn how to Blah blah blah..... You get what i mean.

Now, I'm thinking, maybe after all my troubles "hex"... This is a good thing for me! Hehe! Me so Excited! I still have to back up my mini. Hay! thinking about it. I'm sure going to miss my mini! Anyway, does anyone tried backing up songs from the ipod? You can do it daw eh. I just have to research it. I'm getting the Green Color (again! Same as my Mini). I'm thinking the first Video that I'm going to load.... and I think it will be Something from Fall Out Boy! Maybe! He! Walang magawa ako eh? Parang Gago! Haha!

For the people who are conserned, my left eye is getting better. Although its still got a small bruise and blood clot from the fall. I'm having eye treatment and I'll be wearing glasses again. My scars are drying up, but it still look gross! hehe! I still cover it up with band aid. So friends, when you see me with shades at night, I don't have Pink Eye! Its because of my blood clot! Okie!

Oh my gosh! I think this October is my unlucky month!

Last night, I was at 4 by Force with Achie and Kent. I had almost 2 mugs of beer with alot of ice. I stood up, walked towards the c.r. and waited till it was my turn. My eyes are getting blurry and my head was feeling light. Next thing i knew, I was lying down on a line of chairs and Kent was calling me "Val, Val, Val!", my sister was shaking me to wake up. I open my eyes wide and ask "What happened to me?". I couldn't feel any thing. I sit up, Kent handed me a Glass of water. I drank till its empty. And the feeling of humiliation is sinking in me. Like I was drinking the "water of mortification". In my head I was screaming "I want to go home!". I collected myself. Thanked the two guys who saw and help me. Went back to our table. Drank more water. Achie and Kent, ordered me an Ice cream. According to them: the reason that i fainted maybe, because i have low glucose in my body. I was so pale. Like dead pale. Now, i am beginning to feel the left side of my face was numb and my teeth was so painful, like it cracked. My hands stared to feel like it been dragged to a rocking road street. My shirt has blood! Oh my gosh! My head, face and hands was so painful! But no major damage was done. I now have a small bruise on left side of my eyes. My hands has plenty of cuts. And the upper left side of my lip is swollen. My teeth are fine.

Today, the left side of my face was swollen from the fall last night. I just got in the office. Making my coffee. The glass of the ceiling light fell on my face! It cut the right side of my lips, my right cheek got a little bruise.

I was saying to myself! How unlucky could I be? Twice in a row?! Without even the break of 24 hours! My Gosh! I felt like i'm spooked! Jinx! Hex!

I asked my friend Clifson, what's the date on the Chinese calendar today. It was September 22, it is this month that the spirit comes out. He suggested to me that I should not go out till October 11 pass and I should be extra careful this coming days.

I don't really believe in unlucky days. But now, I am starting too. It might be just a coincidence.
But for now -- I'll just be safe and stay put at home.

YOU MUST BE KIDDING ME! I just finished writing a freaking blog and it doesn't come out!!! SHIT! I didn't even back it up!! This is really Shitty! I was really serious about it!

If I was to have a baby that would be the name written in the Title. The supposed to be Blog before this was better. Now, I'm not in the "feel" mood. So, I'll just cut it short.

If I was to have a baby the name would be Sean Sebastian. You see anytime soon, the "greatest" love of my life will be a"father" officially. I just finished watching the movie "Knocked Up" Starring Seth Rogen and Katherine Heigl. In my case, I avoid watching movies that includes "pregnant women" and "babies". Need to explain? For non-friend. You'll get the chapter of my life that I have no intro written at all. If you haven't watched the movie. GO and SEE it. For the people who already seen the movie. I hope I am enlightening you with my thoughts. I want to experience that kind of life. It not pleasant at first. But it was better at the end. Before this movie, I want my life to the the Julia Roberts and this AIDS guy, Dying Young. Taking care of a person unconditionally. But in reality, I always see myself as the "My Bestfriend's Wedding" show. I want to life my life in a brighter side. But i know that i'm not going too. I mean hello, I'm 27, single, not even as sexy or good looking as Katherine. I'm not meeting anyone that I think about "twice" too or anyone "new". I know, I'm bing pathetic.. But Hey! Someone quoted "We live in a cynical world". Corny huh? But good things happen to people. But I don't know in what loop hole mine is getting into. I'm depress and I don't know anymore what I can do with it. I know something will eventually happen in my life that will take a high part in my history. But I know that I will die young. So, technically, I don't have much time. Where is that bright side of my life? My chest feels heavy. I want to cry. Really badly. but i can't. Cause, I know if i did, I'll be back to zero. Where i used to be. Am I making any sense to you? Most of the time, I think that I'm going crazy. Wild thought run in my head and it doesn't make sense at all. This movie, "knocked Up".. made a really huge impact on me. it made me write this (the second time around). now my mind is going __________. So, I'll just end it by saying.....

P.S. I think it's a Girl