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Why do some guys are so skittish?  Is this a sign of insecurities or fear?

Ive been chatting with this cute guy for weeks now.. We planned on meeting in person, but he seems to be delaying it.  Why??

We chat everyday, the whole day, talking about mostly how our days goes and sometimes makes joke on how we would be when we hang out in person..  We are actually having good conversations, right?  I the mean, if its was so boring then we shouldn't be keeping on communicating all the time, right?  He even started to let me know where he is, greets me "goodnights" and "good mornings". We started video calling, he would call me when his hands are busy doing household stuffs, while I watch my series on the background.. We would video call until he leave for work.. So he must be enjoying it as I am, right?


Oh also, I wanted to mention.. When we talk about each others "history" (discussion of our personal lives), he always tells me "i'll tell you more in person".. All he has divulge are; he is married, but separated for 6 years and two girls, who lives with the mom.  He lives with his parents and currently looking for a maid because the last kasambahay he had money issues with.  I can say this guy is so busy.. When he wakes up, he cooks food for breakfast, lunch, and sometimes for dinner.. After cooking he wakes his parents to have breakfast and make sure they drink their meds.  Then he preps himself to get ready for work. When he gets home mostly he cooks dinner and do other housed chores like laundry..


I remember the time we video called and he started telling about himself, and I ask what is the reason why they decided to separate (him and the wife), he stopped with what he was doing and straight face looking at the camera saying "I'll tell you everything when we meet, you can ask me personal questions, I'll answer it all.. Then you can decided if you like to be a part of my life or not. Decide there on, now now".. Napa tanga ago nun.. It was like all of a sudden his aura was so serious. So in shocked I was like "ohhh oookey. Hehe!"..  I felt some kind of electric shock.. Haha! Since then no more personal question answered.. When I do ask he always says he reminds me that he would tell me in person..


That was the first week we got to chat and video call, also the week we start to plan when we will meet.. So far we discussed the time we both can't, like when is my car coding and his, we agreed coffee place, somewhere public, but no time or day yet.. I thought we did set a day; I thought that it will be Wednesday after the week we started to chat. Came Tuesday night, I was confirming and he cancelled on me saying he would be busy and other excuses.. Since then no mention on when, he only mention the even on August, the Dutdutan tattoo even".. Per naman, thats what 2 month from now?!  Oh I dunno if I should wait to what.. Haha!


It just makes me curious on what the hell is he hiding or even is he is hiding something.  Is he insecure?  But to me what will he be insecure about, diba?  Or he just wants a cyber pen pal?  Haha!  I got a lot of questions in my mind on "Why's"..

Sana ma sagot soon... I'm contemplating if I should go cold turkey with this guy.  Im getting attached with the routine he set up.  I actually like it and I don't want to be too attached that It gets me frustrated..

So if anyone bothered to read my blog.. Any thoughts?

Tinder.  I signed up! haha!

I wanted to share my experienced with it, so here it is.  Its easy app, swipe left to Nope and right to Match. If you both match, thats the time you can send a message to the matching person.. Ive chatted to few people both male and female.. I made chat friends exchanging mobile numbers to transfer to the viber app.

I noticed that there is a trending questions mostly asked.
- Location
- Status (Single, married, divorced, separated)
- Why am I at Tinder
- What am I looking for

and my answers;
- Mandaluyong (nothing more specific than that)
- Single, Never been married, No Kids
- Looking for someone to chat, passing time
- to chat with and maybe friends who i can meet organically

And I noticed the last two questions are usually the "deal breakers".  Meaning if the person is interested on continuing the conversation or not..  If its a good conversation, 2 hours tops, you'll be exchanging numbers and move to Viber.  I think, this is because the Tinder app lacks the ability to send photos.  If you want to see how the person looks you just check their profile page.  The profile page consists of name, age, bio/info, work, school, and uploaded photos. which photos are probably not their current photos.. Haha! You'll be surprised that the photos some uploads are year or some image of none person..

Anyways here is mine..

"I miss you"

I want to tell you that, Chad.

But instead..

I'll get busy to have no time to think about you.
I'll forget you to forgive you.
I'll find happiness to not be sad for you.
&
I'll someday I won't  be think about you.

WOW!

He is so true to his word, he UNFRIEND  Me..

I didn't expect that cause its an immature thing to do.. But I guess Im not the ONLY child in the ex-relationship..

Im still in shocked.. I dunno how I would described the feeling..  My face felt numb and could only feel my heart betting.. Is this how true shocked really feel? Im just speechless..

While I was washing the dishes, a thought came to my mind.. a question that I may or may not know the answers.. 

I find myself heartbroken again.