Blog-huh?

What's that? Heartaches and mistakes? Look at the mess that we created? What's that?

I woke up today feeling so tired, restless.. You were the first thing on my mind.. Conversation from last night slowly flowing in my thoughts.. I'm thinking, is this how it's supposed to be? I knew from the time the arguments was starting, it's setting its place, something is broken.. I kept on thinking, analyzing, laying the pices of the puzzle, mapping it out.. Then I realized, I broke my rule, bend it without thinking and reflecting.. 

Last night was a mirror, a mirror of the consequence that I am forced to be facing.. I was feeling so happy and I guess, at some point, my feet needs to be back on the ground. I guess that's why they say that happiness is a temporary thing in the world, unless acceptance sets to place. Happiness is borrowed time.. Can't be happy all the time right? Something should come and exist to keep things balance..

I'm not fully decided on what I want to happen, I'm always scared to make decision.. When it comes to matters of life, it's so difficult to be facing ultimatums and finalization.. But then again, it's harder to be in between, floating, hanging, it's torture.. Emotional inflicting pain especially to someone who thinks a lot, always expecting the worst.. 

So, while waiting for the future to happen, my thoughts are left with this sentiments;

It is a pester to me, to be seeking what exactly the meaning...