Monday, October 28, 2013
Monday, October 14, 2013
Tonight I will attempt to write an obituary for my dear friend Kitty.
Kitty was a awesome friend. A clever person, full of energy that will take you drunk without having a bottle of beer. I've known Kitty since after my birthday. We meet over a random chat. I couldn't remember exactly how we started, but I remember the night I exchanged numbers with him. I spent that night with my friends and Mom at Bacrino, atc. Since then, we always had been texting. It was good. A routine that I find it hard to let go.
I met Kitty in person at City Golf, Ortigas. The memorable experienced was at the parking lot. Second time I met with Kitty, was at this cafe at Connecticut street named Torched. Another memorable experienced at the car park, where I learned that my driver's license was not in my purse, and that night - I was totally freaked out. Last (I hope not the least) was at PP. He invited me to watch a movie. It was a boring movie experience called "gravity". Then we transfered to Grilla Bar and to this place near Pasay City. That night was a great fun night. A night that will always be remembered.
Six day ago and tonight, things were not the same for me. I've been channeling my frustrations to him. Well, at least that what he said, and it woke me up to my senses. Tonight, I will try to mourn Kitty's death, until I am back to my normal health (literally) and self. I will sure miss the "Goodmornings" and "Goodnights" kisses from Kitty. I'll definitely miss texting from the time my eyes open till they fall a asleep. Sure, I love my routine, but I also love not feeling hurt or sad by the person who keeps my iPhone busy for me and makes my globe bill sky high. I'll miss sharing my thought and our odd witty conversations that really makes me laugh or smile the almost the whole time. I'll miss getting freak out and spooked by Kitty. He makes me feel intoxicated, like I belong to the clouds with the sun, moon, and stars. It was a great feeling that tonight those feelings will turn into tears.Wherever you are Kitty. Always be safe, drown your self moderately, and the most important of all, be happy... And I hope you will not forget about me, your shining Star.
Thursday, October 10, 2013
I'm am down with some viral that I don't know when I exactly got it. Doctor said its because of my low immune system. I've started drinking my meds last Monday, 7th of October. I'm off the weather. I've been homebound for days. My fever started to subside 2 days ago. I'm up most of the time and I'm freaking bored. I don't know what home buddy do. All I could think of are my dresses, my new dresses that I've been wanting to wear, accessorized, fix my hair nicely and wear my chucks. I want to be with my friend and hangout. I want my routine back badly. I want to have dinner with my freinds and hang out have desserts or coffee, watch movies, talk about anything. Staying home without any fever is driving me nuts. I wish i have the fever (not the body pains).. So that I would be asleep the whole time and not think about stuff that been happening to my life right now, I tend to be pessimistic towards others. What can I say, I'm a happy girl, when I'm out and wearing my clothes, shoes, bracelets. Happy girl, when I'm productive and keeping myself busy with the stuff that interest me. Oh I don't know what to do yet.
Side Track...
I was told by a friend that I am channeling my frustrations on him and he doesn't know what to do with it. That made me realized that I am feeling annoyed. Since I'm not doing anything, I tend to wait for him to text me back. This is not good at all. I feel I'm a parasite. I do not exploit people. I am not that kind of person. What the HELL is this virus doing to me? I was having a fun time with this friend and things are great between us. I was in a happy place. Oh I want to go back to being happy and not feeling frustrated. I'm thinking of how to divert my attention to whom or what. For a sick girl, I should be feeling tired, weary, exhausted. Its been two days that I couldn't sleep at night because of my itchy rashes that the viral is causing. Plus, I just learned that Advil is the meds thats making my tummy painful. Good thing, Ive realized that after 3 days. I'm on a different type of medication today, as the Doctor suggested.
I'm not having dinner with my family tonight. I'm going take this frustrations to sleep. Hoping that when I wake up, I'll feel much more better and that my friend will still be there waiting for me..
Tuesday, October 08, 2013
It always get me bad in the morning.. Especially when I just woke up.. Not a nice game when someone just woke up.. That's why I think, the game "hide and seek" is always best played during the night...
It is a pester to me, to be seeking what exactly the meaning...
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