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How can someone be so cruel? Not even thinking how can the other feel? When I receive the request. I was shocked and stunned of what I was reading "who". How come he never thought of my feelings? Was two years enough to forget what happened? And Why? Why? Why? Am I feeling this? I should stop caring since that night, when the long hand of the clock hits twelve. They say that "love takes time to heal, especially when we are hurting too much". How long exactly will that time comes? I've been waiting, waiting patiently. As much as I wanted to count ever second, minute, hour that pass. I try really hard not too. But I'm only human right? And No human is too busy, twenty four hours, seven days, 12 months, to not see and count the time. I am trying real hard not to care anymore. I've been praying for him to have his perfect life. To be happy, content, satisfied. To have the dream-come-true i his life. So, so that he wont think of me. When I got that request, I could think of this... That he is not happy. That something is wrong with him. That things are falling apart from him. Now, I say this with pure honesty. That I am wrong of thinking of this. That I felt sorry for myself, for lingering like this in my life. That I am pathetic, to long for something that I used to have to that I just let it go. Let go just because to prove that, we are destined for one another and that No matter how long, painful things comes to our way, we can endure it. It was so painful enough for me to accept that he just replace me. REPLACE me! Replace me just like that. Not even given enough time to see, if we have a chance the next year.

How much more should i endure with this? How come he didn't even consider my feelings by adding me? Is this a sign that I am that easy to forget? I wish all of this suspicions is just me. Its just in my head. I really hope that my prayers will be answered. I never wanted to harm him. I didn't toy with his love. I worked so hard for myself to not be in this situation. But I guess, I should have put more effort to it. With just a request, I become This.