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I am not a fan of Pinoy movies. It all started with my friend Rob, who keeps inviting me to watch the newly highly talked about pinoy movies. I’ve watched three movies so far.


1. Bru and Palits
2. Joanna, Ian, and Karyn And
3. Popoy and Basha


I’m sure you can guess the titles of the movie I’ve written above.
I’m not sure why I’m writing this down. As I am continuously type, i’ll figure out where I am going with this.


I just finish e-mailing my Best- Rina. Do some small paper work, that’s on top of my desk. Smoke and smoke. I was telling my best friend about the movie I watched yesterday. I forgot to mention to her that the whole movie house was packed with couples or girl friends.
Its not a date movie.


Its more of a couple movie or a post “had my heart broken by someone I believe to be my The ONE” movie. Its your typical movie that is about long term relationship, growing up, learning , and fighting for the one you believe to be your true love.

It’s the movie that will move you because you have experience it.

I think it’s only the girls who can understand Bea at the movie. The part of the girl’s life when she is getting tiered and needing space. The feeling of suffocation. The changing of character. Getting lost. Not knowing who she is anymore. It’s about self seeking. Finding the answers by your own. Getting out there and experiencing it without any help from your friends. The growth that only time and experience can teach us. This is the only part of Bea’s character that I can relate too. I felt this feeling. Only my girlfriend can understand it. My guy barkada can’t, no matter how much I or my girlfriends explain it to them. The part of a girl’s life that makes her a grown woman.


John’s character was the one who save the relationship. Without his strength, intelligence, and willingness to pursue, this movie won’t be ideally, and faithfully correct. I think, most people could relate to him. Unless you haven’t had your heart broken. It’s the: I want to get drunk, stay in bed, smoke, smoke, smoke, and smoke, thinking over and over, not eating at all, wanting to be alone, I want to die. It’s the love that is hurting too much, but you can’t stop loving that person, no matter how you try- Cause you know it’s the right love for you. John’s character was the control freak, planner, commander, and selfish. He is the type of person who is strong, knows what he wants- makes it happen, plans for the future – in his own control, had the effort to pursue and make things happen, he had a gift and curse- to make someone change, and lastly - believes in faith. I’m not being boastful, but am I almost the same as him. Like a vague water color painting from afar.


This is my bell. The bell that will; should wake me up- this time. It’s like the summary of my story, telling me… It ends here, time to start another chapter. The after story of moving on, the part where people find it boring, (that’s why no one makes a movie about it). It’s a start of a new me.


I don’t believe that we always end up with “the one”.

I don’t believe that love will find the way.

I don’t believe that love is enough to make the whole world spin

I don’t believe that sacrifices are worth in the end

I don’t believe that love does heal

Cynical as it appears

Bitter as it sounds


It’s who I am.